Posted by: justbewhoyouare | February 28, 2012


A friend sent me an email asking how I was doing and as I thought about what to say, the following is what I came up with:

I’m feeling all the same intense energy as everyone else is. Yesterday in particular, I awoke with heavy fear and doubt floating around inside. These emotions represent all those aspects that just can’t understand how things are going to work out when my bank account is rapidly dwindling to zero and there’s no savings, 401K or unemployment to fall back on. So they were screaming through my mind for me to get a job!

Ah, but what a blessing these aspects are. I’ll explain what I mean. During the day a woodpecker showed up outside and was doing some serious damage to an old dead tree in the backyard. Since I hadn’t seen a woodpecker around here since October and because I sometimes enjoy playing with symbolism, I decided to look up Ted Andrew’s perspective on this bird in ­Animal-Speak and was not disappointed: “…it will become increasingly important to follow your own rhythms and flight. Do what works for you in the manner best for you. When woodpecker comes into your life it indicates that the foundation is there. It is now safe to follow your own rhythms.”

These words reminded me of the desire I’ve had all my life to teach. When I was 18-years-old I was so blown away by Be Here Now by Ram Dass that all I wanted to do was tell everyone I met about it. A few years later I joined the Moonies and spent the next 23 years teaching people his message through the spoken word and by example. When I chose to let that go, I discovered the ultimate truth—that I am God also (and so are you), and for the past 14 years have been compelled to continue teaching whatever the latest version of my truth happens to be, since truth itself is always changing because no truth (other than you are God also) is written in stone.

I know well the aspects that showed up yesterday because they are the same ones that talked me out of my dream to travel and teach oh so many times during these past 14 years. Their voice of logic reminded me on several occasions that no one survives on the planet without a paycheck, and because this idea had been deeply engrained within me, I bought into it every time. Yesterday they were no less intense, as they were practically screaming bloody murder, and I felt as though their energy was going to suffocate me.

Thanks to woodpecker, I chose to take a long hot bath, relax, and to make myself a scrumptious Mahi Mahi meal with whole wheat couscous, a fresh-cut salad and a glass of wine, and enjoyed a fairly quiet mind for the rest of the evening. This helped shift my perspective and to tap into my natural rhythm.

I’ve been taking walks in this neighborhood for over a year since I moved here to Gainesville but had never gone up a certain side street—until today. It turned out to be a windy road displaying several newly built homes and the energy was wonderfully refreshing. As I walked along, further perspective came flowing in.

Anytime in the past when these aspects had shown up I caved into their illusions because I was simply falling back on the age-old belief in needing to find security in something outside myself, not just in money but in a relationship as well. A necessary requirement in teaching my truth is to live it, which for me means releasing this belief once and for all. Therefore, my current circumstances have actually been carefully, gently, and lovingly created by my soul (which means by me) in order to do just that.

Because I now choose to believe that I AM the source of joy, which includes abundance, I am choosing to set myself free from the illusion that money is the source of happiness. That doesn’t mean I don’t need it to pay the bills because I do. It means I don’t need to be dependent on it for happiness. Bills paid or not, I can stay in my joy. This is in fact one of the issues that is currently on the table within the consciousness of humanity. Our age-old dependency on outside sources for safety and security are being called into question. Can we find joy even if life seems to reflect lack?

By me choosing joy no matter what, I am adding this potential to the consciousness, which will make easier for others to do the same. This is teaching by example, and for that, I am deeply grateful for this opportunity to grow into living my truth. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

On a practical note, I am trusting that a foundation is indeed laid and thus, I am choosing to follow my own rhythm, doing what works best for me, which currently happens to be doing the final proofread of my third book, the title of which has changed a few times but is currently Mastering True Love: How to End Suffering, Become Your Own Best Friend, and Begin Living Your Dreams. If all goes well, this should be available by the end of March.

I’m also putting together an instrumental cd of my guitar playing. Actually, I had all the tracks recorded but realized that each recording was done on only one track. Since I had no way of separating the instruments out of the track, I decided to re-record them all, laying down a track at a time and then mixing them together. I am only just beginning to do this. This will make the recording stereo and will also allow me to add some cool affects to come of the tracks. I intend to invest a lot more energy into this project once the book is finished.

Beyond this, I have been playing guitar in local venues a few times a week and doing some dancing as well, which is just another one of my passions.

So this is my way of answering my friend and I thank her for asking me the question because look what it stimulated and allowed me to learn! Yes, life in 2012 is good so far!

Lastly, since money does come in handy for the practical things, if you enjoy my posts, I invite you to donate something, which will go towards actually publishing my book and creating my cd. It will also be an investment in yourself because it will balance the energy and will be an affirmation of your own creatorship and abundance. Thank you!

Further, if you’d like more information about me, see

I also invite you to leave a comment below. I’d love to read your thoughts on this.





  1. Good stuff. We are all Gods awakening. Keep it coming.

    • Thank you Mike and Alexander for your kind words. Blessings to you…:)

  2. Great post Paul! And what fun it is to experience this all within the new consciousness! Greetings from Austria, Alexander

  3. Nice reminder Paul… I had the pleasure of witnessing a huge piliated wood pecker nesting right at the end of my driveway a few years back, birthing her new ones and all 🙂 How perfect! lol…and I just spent a few moments with one on my walk the other day! Yes, indeed 2012, the year of manifesting our dreams…

    • Thank you Brenda. Yes, it is the year we “find our voice” as the magnificant Adamus St. Germain has indicated….allow life to flow in the way that is best for each of us and the rest of life will take care of itself. Love and blessings to you…:)

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